So I am here learning the lesson I supposedly learned before.Remember this post? I shared my experience listening to the flight attendants asking parents to put the oxygen masks on themselves first and then on their children. I felt like it was a revelation moment; a light streaming down from Heaven with the angels singing "AAAA" kind of moment! I need to take care of myself before I can take care of my family. So obvious. Except clearly I have a very VERY hard head.I wrote that post three years ago (almost to the day) and yet here I am again!2014 has brought me a lot of blessings but it has also brought a lot of illness. A LOT. Two months of pneumonia, two more sinus infections and a stomach bug. Last week was the breaking  point as I was rushed to an ultrasound for stomach pain that literally dropped me to the ground.  I was texting a friend and this is what she wrote...Did you see that? In case you missed it...Yep, she reminded me to put the mask on myself.  Yet again I have not taken care of myself and yet again, I am ill. Am I able to be the best mom I can be right now? The best wife? The best writer? The best friend? No to all. By letting myself down, I did the very thing that I wanted to avoid. I let down everyone else.So the question is "will I learn the lesson this time?" I hope so. I just scaled back my commitments and actually spent the weekend in bed. Somehow I need to take this advice not just to heart but into my life. Otherwise, I will keep hitting my head against the wall.And my head isn't that hard!